I was woken up next morning around sunrise by the same group of widows and asked to brush my teeth and finish other toilet routines. I did not realize what was in store for me the next morning and had a good sleep. I withstood all this and the slept for the night. Then I was told that as per custom and tradition I must wear only a beige colored sari with out blouse and was given one to wear. My sari, blouse, brassiere and panties were also removed and I was made totally nude. There they stripped me of my make up like vermilion dot on my forehead, flowers and my jewels. A group of women from amongst our relatives, who were also widows, pounced on me and took me to the backyard of our house. On the tenth day night, all these turned into a nightmare and I was subjected to the worst form of humiliation. There were elaborate rituals for ten days and each day I used to be dressed in the finest sari, all jewellery, flowers on my long hair and a big dot of vermilion on my forehead, a typical bridal make-up. Then only I realized what happens to a widow in a traditional orthodox south Indian Brahmin family. Within few years, my husband was involved in a road accident and died immediately. However, they increased my libido and sexual desire that remained unsatisfied due my husband?s inadequacy. This treatment did not have any impact on me getting pregnant. The elders in the family naturally blamed me for this and sent me to some local country quacks for treatment. My married life was disappointing, as my husband could not satisfy me sexually. We belong to the orthodox south Indian Brahmin family. I was aged twenty- eight and was married seven years prior to that. I am narrating my experience twenty-five years back.
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